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  Poetic Embrace

  Fiordaliza Charles

  copyright 2012 Fiordaliza Charles

  Smashbook Edition

  DEDICATION

  To my creator and savior GOD. To the people that worked so hard at published America to

  make sure that I get my book published again, to my readers whom I appreciate so much. To

  my mother who always encourages me to do my best. My daughter who always brings out the

  best in me. My husband who always been a supporter of everything that I do and to my family

  and friends that have supported me in the making of this book and in life. Thank you all for

  everything you do for me. I am forever thankful.

  ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

  First and foremost, I will like to thank God for giving me the ability to read and write poetry

  and to you all of the staff members of Publish America for giving me yet another opportunity to

  be heard and for taking a chance with me again.

  Very special thanks to my family and friends that asked me to keep writing because, they feel I

  need to be heard, your support means so much to me. Much love to Father and Mother who

  love me unconditionally and really helped me to embrace who I've become. Special thanks to

  all my readers who continue to support me and give me wonderful feedback on my writings

  each day. I will never forget your words of encouragement.

  I am specially grateful to my daughter Kadiya whom believes in me and looks up to me and she

  says I make her want to be a better person because of what I have accomplished here and last

  but, not least my biggest thank you goes out to my husband who encourages me to do better

  everyday and assures me that he loves me. I am so blessed to have found you and I love you

  with all my heart.

  Fiordaliza Charles

  ALONE

  As I lay here thinking

  Last night

  Pondering on how to find my soul a home

  Where the water's are not for the thirsty

  and bread is not made of a stone

  I came up with one thing

  and I don't believe that I'm wrong

  That nobody

  but, nobody

  can make it out here alone

  Alone, all alone

  nobody but, nobody

  can make it out here alone

  Give me a reason to live

  I don’t want to be around anymore

  I lost everything that I adored

  Alone, all alone

  nobody but, nobody

  can make it out here alone

  TIRED OF WAITING

  I'm tired of waiting, patiently for love

  To get hurt, once again

  tired of the bull-crap I get from these lames

  I need a true friend till the very end

  Life is so unpredictable

  When you find yourself in love

  everything just seems so real

  but, that is never the deal

  Now that is over, I have to forget the fun

  everything that you promised, is now done

  after all the I love you's

  all the love we shared is gone

  I'm tired of wishing, things get better

  Today, I promise myself

  I break free

  and start thinking of me

  DON'T UNDERSTAND

  Why can't you feel my fears

  why do we grow apart and not near

  I waste time and all my tears

  for true love, all of these years

  Can't you tell, I have a broken heart

  that my soul has been torn apart

  why, can't I just forget you

  Now, that I am feeling blue

  I feel this pain, like a burning flame

  I'm going to be alone once again

  not letting anyone else in my lane

  I need time to recuperate

  You don't understand

  love is not a game

  I am hurting and you just walk away

  My life will never be the same

  I SEE THE TRUTH

  I knew it was coming

  The day I feel my heart was ran over

  Never through that after all these years

  you would give me your cold shoulder

  The ocean is no longer full

  The sun is no longer shinning

  The air suddenly became cold

  I feel the pain through my soul

  I see the truth

  A day I wished never came true

  My best friend turn out to be

  The one that was untrue

  I feel so empty and doomed

  My heart you truly misused

  For some reason I still love you

  but, I'm glad that we are through

  I'M BACK...

  I'm back city of sorrow

  thought I never say that again

  land of broken promises and no friends

  greater places I've embraced

  Giving all nothing in return

  but, now I am truly happy

  though everyone else is not

  to NYC I can always come back

  Feeling the thrill of the day

  Hanging out in a familiar place

  and seeing my New York

  I will never feel alone again

  Leaving here was no surprise

  but, coming back felt so good

  I left many good things behind

  now, I'm just glad to be back

  SURVIVOR...

  Having shelter, is not enough to survive

  but, I bet I can make it work

  suffering deep inside of my soul

  can't help it that my stomach groans

  I put my negative thoughts away

  in a jar of memory jelly

  hoping that it dissolves

  and one day my time will come

  Striving to do better

  but, things are getting worst

  putting my heart away in silent fear

  trying to hold back these tears

  I am a survivor, I know

  I said these words to myself everyday

  I can't give up on life now

  I have to do this for my child

  NEW YORK CITY

  What it is to me, simply this

  A city of hope and dreams

  ditches, garbage, hearts that are broken within

  hard workers, who can't afford anything

  People living mostly in fear

  In an apartments that are staked out

  Scared to get wet in this rain

  Praying the lord takes your soul, if you pass away

  Mixture of people from different races

  NYC you can take it a leave it

  but, you will return for more

  is just like an addition, that just can't ignore

  New York City, is for survivors

  I've been here, fought the war

  Same old city, just a different day

  Rain or sunshine, I'm here to stay

  MY HEART

  I wondered where you've gone

  they told me you went away

  I wondered, why you left so sudden

  all my sunny skies turned to gray

  Thought I would never love this way

  never thought we've be apart like this

  But, what did you have to lose?

  You left me, feeling confused

  I've told you that I needed you r />
  and you made it to a test

  I just wanted us to be together

  and build us a happy nest

  I knew my heart was ready for you

  that's the reason why I stayed

  but, I knew that the moment you saw her

  You would of broken away

  I MISS YOU...

  Reality never set in

  You were more than a friend to me

  To you I told all my dark secrets

  Things I always kept within

  Now that you no longer here

  Who do I run to with my fears

  You the one who understood me

  When I was draining in tears

  How am I going to get passed

  The things that we both went through

  Now we can't just sit and talk about it

  Life was taken from you and we parted

  Knowing that you in a better place

  keeps me from going insane

  I wish that you was here

  so we can become one again

  CRUSHED

  Shattered in pieces, where is my heart

  I want to love you but, how

  all you do is run away

  and leave when I want you to stay

  The days we spent together

  you always on your phone

  I get a little moment of your time

  and you never drop me a line

  I think you find excuses

  not to be with me through the day

  but, if you want for it to be over

  that is all you have to say

  I do not want to lose you

  I really love you so much

  It may not mean anything to you

  but, I don't want to be crushed

  QUESTIONS

  Are you still here ?

  Waiting for what ?

  Why don't you leave me ?

  What are your thoughts

  Why must I repeat myself?

  How many times, do I have to tell you?

  Do you think this is a game?

  Here, you can no longer stay

  Why don't you get out of my face?

  Do you think you can't be replaced?

  How can you love anyone?

  After you hurt them this way

  Do you think I'm yours?

  Was you to my heart untrue?

  Can you find someone like me?

  I'm not coming back to you

  NEVER AGAIN

  The smell of your cologne

  the hugs that I once owned

  the way you made love to me

  now I will never know

  You used to tell me you adore me

  now I'm feeling all used

  you leave me behind like a piece a crap

  how come treat me like that

  I waited for you each day

  with the smell of you still around

  but, you never came back home

  where did all the love go

  The love we shared can not be found

  It will never be replaced

  can't you see that I'm the one

  why do I love so hard

  TEARS OF A CLOWN

  Don't ever think that I'm not hurt

  every time you leave I want to die

  but, I will never show it

  I rather you think I'm alright

  Don't ever think that I'm not in pain

  every time we not together I feel I’m going insane

  but, I will never show you that

  I rather you think, I'm just drained

  Don't ever think that I am not sad

  every time you leave me, I want to cry

  but, I will never let you see me like that

  I rather you think, that with out you I will survive

  Don't ever think that I don't be stress

  every time you not around I'm a mess

  but, I will never show that when I am near you

  I rather you think, that I don't miss you

  I AM SCARED TOO

  I want to love you all over again

  but, I don't think you want to be loved

  every time I attempt to, I just get hurt

  Like you was not sent from above

  Can you show me the way

  I want to make it through

  with you by my side each day

  despite of what you put me though

  I know is hard to keep it together

  my heart is always confused

  I can't imagine my life with out you

  but, I am also scared too

  PEACE !!!

  Let's fight for the right reason

  Let's make a difference in our children life

  Let's give the world a reason to celebrate

  Let's take a chance and make things right

  Let's get together brothers and sisters

  Let's remember to celebrate life every day

  Let's make our mothers and fathers proud

  Let's take our children fears away

  Let's give people something good to talk about

  Let's grant our ancestor something to be proud about

  Let's be grateful for what we have found

  Let's say "Yes I Can" without a doubt

  Let's be more specific of what we need

  Let's show our generation ways to succeed

  Let's give each other the love we deserve

  and work on peace down here on earth

  A PICTURE

  It saw a picture, it made me look twice

  I did not know him from a drop of a dime

  but, I needed him to be a part of my life

  can't believe that I met him online

  He made me believe in every word he said

  He knew of all the pain, I was trying to erase

  He said he take care of it and take me afar

  Away from all the things that have broken my heart

  I trusted him with all that I know

  my body could not wait till he came home

  I felt so incomplete until we spoken last night

  He was my savior and my only knight

  He never made me feel insecure

  He gave me his love and so much more

  Then one day I realize that it was all a dream

  and he was just a picture in my computer screen

  COME WITH ME

  I want to take you away

  to a place where all your pain disappears

  like a candle that brightens your life

  I promise to never leave your side

  I will give you all the things that you deserve

  No, place that you'll find here on earth

  let me love you down from here on

  and completely take over your soul

  Let me take over your mind

  to a place where you feel at ease

  where your body is set free

  as you reach your final destiny

  Come with me and be loved

  to a place filled with many fantasies

  where there are many pleasures

  and I can be your hidden treasure

  WHATEVER YOU WANT

  I know that is so sudden

  my heart for you felt so hard

  I knew it from the start

  you was my luck charm

  I want to do it all over again and again

  you made the pains go away

  it hit me like a sunlight's ray

  that you was here to stay

  I never want you to leave

  with you I rather be

  you are the one sent from above

  You can have whatever you want

  HAPPY

  Happier then I ever been

  Joyful and more complete

  No longer feeling scared

  You
can keep me teddy bear

  Filled with so much love

  Memories of us make me smile

  Feeling like a new born child

  Knowing that you will be around

  Thankful that you are here

  Waited for your love for so many years

  I am no longer living in fear

  Pain no longer lives here

  LIES

  Said we be forever but, I know that is not the true

  How can your love be for real, with all this pain I have consumed

  You said you love me and you made it seemed like you cared

  In my heart I took a chance because, I am always scared

  How can I ever forgive and forget

  Your love was all that I knew

  Don't sit around an pretend you love me